Life can turn in a moment.
Last Friday I was out of the area speaking at a women’s conference. My subject was Remembering God. Though it sounds simplistic, it is important. Why? Because most of us forget. It’s something I call spiritual amnesia. And, though it sounds funny, it’s no laughing matter.
We forget lots of things and forgetting who God is when in the middle of real, busy, often hard, every day life, is quite easy. At least for me. When I forget I panic, become fearful or worry the hours away. But, when I remember I begin gathering peace in my heart.
“Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not His benefits.” Psalm 103
The emphasis last weekend was “forget not”. Do not forget his love, his care, his promises or that he is always working in our lives. Little did I know that as soon as I got home I would have to practice what I just shared with the women.
My daughter in law was expecting her second child this summer. I have been so excited about this new addition. But I learned once again that things can quickly change. They did.
Within an hour of my return home my daughter in law began having complications, her water broke and within days she was in labor at just 22 weeks pregnant. The other grandma and I waited in the hospital lobby. Two broken hearted mama’s. Nana and Grammy prayed, paced and kept reminding ourselves that God could do a miracle. As day turned to night, God moved but the miracle wasn’t what we expected. Jace Daniel Brier arrived at 8:17 pm and was wrapped in the arms of Jesus.
“He knows the way that I take” Job 23:10
We all cried as we looked upon his perfectly formed body. We drank in his features, noting he resembled his big sister. We prayed for this little love that already had a marked space in our hearts. We all vowed to remember him forever. We will. That day changed us. We will never again be naive about real life and we will always know the importance of remembering God is faithful, because quite frankly, in the face of loss, it’s very easy to think God hasn’t showed up for you.
What about you? Do you ever feel that God hasn’t showed up for you? When your prayers seem unanswered is it easy for you to forget? I don’t know your life or your losses, but I know your God. The God who created Heaven and Earth created us. This God, who often seems mysterious, is actually described in one word…GOOD. He is a good God. Life isn’t always fair or good, but God is good and God is working in our lives even in the hard, the losses, the disappointments. I need to remember, because if I don’t remember, life will be even harder.
It is good to remember these things:
Life is hard. Though there are plenty of good days in these lives of ours, the truth is, in this world we have hardships. Because life is hard, we must have a solid foundation of faith in God. And, we must live with grace towards others, because they have hard stuff too. My stance in life must be based on His love.
Loss is inevitable. I wished this was not so, but we all know it is. Most of us, including myself, like to hold on to the things dear to us. But in acceptance there comes peace and a new way to live–open handed. In the light of loss, I want to hold on to the most important truth, that God is indeed working always in my life…even in the face of tragedy and disappointment. My security in this life must be in Him.
God is Good. I have been a Christian for a long time. I write books and bible studies and speak to thousands of women each year. But, let me tell you, I don’t have the answers to the losses in life. I just know that they happen. I have many questions and want to ask God, why?
Why did Jace have to leave so early? I will never take him to the park, play in the sand and chase him around the swings….why? I don’t have a clue. I just know it hurts and it’s hard. Why do my kids have to suffer this kind of loss? There isn’t an answer that resonates within me. I just keep hearing, forget not….I am with you, I am with them.
It’s ok to not know and still have peace in the not knowing.
There I said it. I don’t have answers I just know that things exist in life that we will never understand. Things that will hurt and leave us gasping for answers. And, this is why we must have a solid foundation on Who He Is, remembering that daily.
For now I will close this post with the words to a song I have sung to my kids and now my grands….I sing it tonight, with tears, for Jace Daniel…
I’ll love you forever, I’ll think of you often, as long as I’m living your Grammy I’ll be.
I’ll love you forever, I’ll think of you often, for Jace you are special to me.
“Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you…” Jeremiah 1:5
Jace Daniel Brier, April 19th, 2016