I was spinning. My thoughts moved from calm to chaos in seconds.
Being I couldn’t google an answer for relational stress, being hurt or feeling rejected, I let the situation fuel as I fumed. I am sure you can relate. It happens.
Circumstances make it easy to live in doubt, worry and fear. I know that living in worry is the opposite of living in faith. Still, as painful as worry can be, it is familiar. Trusting God with all outcomes…not so much. Faith is easier spoken than practiced.
One day as I was rehearsing a situation in my head as I made my morning loop of errands, a verse kept popping up in my head. When I got home I looked it up. “Everything that does not come from faith is sin.” Romans 14:23
Was this my answer? While reading the verse, it was easy to see what God was trying to say to me. My worry over my current circumstance was not faith—so it was sin. There were no loop holes! In the state I was in, this seemed harsh.
But, when I don’t trust God with my details, I am missing the mark. My spinning, a default habit when in crisis, was actually saying to God, “ I really don’t believe you, and I don’t put my faith in you when things hurt or don’t go my way.”
I had to admit I was skilled at living buried beneath my problems! I hated to admit that I wasn’t quite as skilled at trusting God! Harsh? It could seem so. None of us likes to be corrected! We like warm fuzzy comfort when we are hurting. But, God’s word was actually comforting. He was teaching me to trust in His love in every-day situations. Because worry was more natural, I had a big learning curve. I was about to learn a mainstay in spiritual life… something I call practice sessions. When you want to learn something you practice the new skill. In the Spiritual life as God wants to teach us something, He holds out truth and then gives us ample situations to practice the new skill of trusting him. I might not like the situations but I sure get a lot of practice trusting.
Learning to Live Under the Promise of His Love
When spinning in frustration, worry or fear– STOP. Address the current situation in prayer. When we are stuck in a negative pattern, we must ask God to forgive us our sin of distrust, before we can move on. Coming to Him with our fears and concerns delights Him. He wants to calm our hearts, helping us understand the reality of His love for us. His love is practical in nature. He comforts, provides, guides, upholds and strengthens His people.
- What are you going through today that is causing you anxiety, fear, or worry?
- Can you see how worrying is the opposite of trusting in God’s care for you?
- Is God big enough for your details?
- Do you find yourself caught in the trap of comparisons or expectations?
- Does social media cause you anxiety because other’s lives seem better than yours?
- Has social media caused stress by contributing to the fear of missing out when not invited?
Our Heavenly Father knows what we need and when we need it. When we don’t trust Him we are not only hurting ourselves emotionally with all the unnecessary worry and spinning but we are hurting ourselves spiritually by living in unconfessed sin. Yes, it is living in distrust when we spin and this is something to be confessed to our kind Heavenly Father. He can handle our crazy so let him have it. His desire is to heal, deliver and restore all that is lost or broken within us. God desires to unclog our spiritual arteries so that peace can flow through us every single day.
Lord, forgive us for all the times we doubt you. Forgive us for not remembering that you are always working in our lives. Forgive us when we compare ourselves with others or desire what they have over what you provide for us. Help us to look Up today and to put our trust in you. Thank you for your love. Amen.